Time to wait

Who knew there was a right way and a wrong way to wait?
I didn't. I thought if you were waiting then you were, well, just waiting.
But I learned something pretty cool tonight, so I thought I would share.

In Isaiah 40:31 it says: "But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint."

In Beth Moore's bible study on Esther, she points out that there is more than one way to wait. If we are waiting on something, or someone, or some event, then waiting can be exhausting. It can be painful. It can wear you out.

But if we wait the way we are supposed to wait...on the Lord, then we are renewed, strengthened, and transformed!

So thinking about that in context with this whole adoption thing really made me pause. I mean we have been waiting a loooooooonnnnnnngggggg time. But have I been waiting the right way?

I definitely have those times where I am impatient for this to just be over and to have children. I want to skip straight to the end and be done with it all. I don't want to have to fill out ANY more paperwork, questionnaires, or informational packets. Just give me my baby, thank you very much.
But there have also been those times of self-discovery in this process. Times of examining my heart and motives, my priorities and my beliefs. Those times have been extraordinary.

I have heard so many times by well-meaning people that it "may just not be God's timing yet" for us to have kids. Well let me tell you that my response to that phrase has not always been kind. Why is God having me wait? What did I do to have to wait while everyone around me is having kids? Why?

So back to Isaiah. If I choose to wait upon the Lord, not upon the arrival of our baby, then I will be strengthened as I wait. Its a choice I have to make. I can be frustrated and outraged that I have to wait. I can complain and pout as I am waiting.

OR....

or I can enjoy this time I have been given with my husband. Enjoy traveling at a moments notice. Enjoy doing what I want to do when I want to do it. If I choose to trust and WAIT on the Lord, I guess that means I won't be too exhausted when He finally does give us our baby. He wants me to be rested and ready to welcome the chaos that will come with this new addition. He doesn't want me so tired from waiting that I miss out on all He has for me.

So I choose to wait.
I choose to wait with a smile on my face.

And I guess with all this waiting, it gives me more time to eat my vegetables too!

Blessings- Kelly